Last June I was on the train to London. I was disorganised, panicking that I’d forgotten my phone charger, rooting flustered through every pocket of my laptop bag, awkwardly asking the management consultant type opposite me if I had dropped my credit card (which was actually safe in my coat pocket). Later he asked meContinue reading “Unsolicited advice from supposed neurotypical”
Category Archives: Mental Health
Masking thread 1
27/12/2019 Just found two unpublished blogs about masking. Masking part 1 Recent social media posts about masking have drawn mixed opinions, and made me think about my thickest masks. I can’t help masking to impress at job interviews, selling skills I don’t really have. Oh, I’d revolutionise their HR systems, affect culture changes. The resultingContinue reading “Masking thread 1”
Masking thread 2 (TW suicide)
From Twitter 28/12/2019 I talked yesterday about my “enjoying a night out with the girls clubbing mask”. I have got to be honest, I have a much thicker mask. I weld it to my face, and it doesn’t just slip when it fails – it cracks wide open. I put this mask on when IContinue reading “Masking thread 2 (TW suicide)”
New Year Resolution for 2020
New Year’s Resolutions, just a continuation of a resolution I made a while ago: Think twice before volunteering, making new commitments, agreeing to things. Remember that you’re spread too thin already, and never know how you or your dependants will feel from one day to the next. My “don’t enter too many races” resolution startedContinue reading “New Year Resolution for 2020”
Side-eye conversations with Iggy
TW CW suicide child death bullying Note: Media interest in our story is not welcome. Names have been changed, so don’t bother googling us. My first-born son killed himself earlier this year, out of the blue, aged just fifteen. For background, since starting high school in 2017 Iggy had been struggling increasingly with anxiety. InContinue reading “Side-eye conversations with Iggy”
‘Tis the season to be overwhelmed tra la la la la fuck off fuck off
There are numerous friends and acquaintances with whom I’ve suggested meeting up for a chat over a run, walk, coffee. Just might take me a while to get around to it. This time of year is always overwhelming for me – balancing the demands of the busy period at work, the pressure of family birthdaysContinue reading “‘Tis the season to be overwhelmed tra la la la la fuck off fuck off”
Izzy’s birthday (TW CW child suicide)
CW TW child death suicide bullying These are not my children’s real names. Media attention is not welcome, thanks. I do not consent for my words nor images to be republished anywhere else. Izzy’s birthday is on Monday, but she’s with her dad, my first husband, for half-term. This evening I took her out forContinue reading “Izzy’s birthday (TW CW child suicide)”
How to paint rocks
You will need some pebbles which are smooth, but not totally shiny (the paint won’t permanently stick to waxed garden centre pebbles). Where I live, there are many suitable pebbles in the stream. Inspiration is easy to find. Just Google “rock painting easy” and look at the images tab. Simple and bold designs e.g. emojis,Continue reading “How to paint rocks”
Online friends and running buddies
It’s a miserable rainy day and I’ve woken with a cold and sore throat, so I’m not sure whether to run this morning. Running is what passes for a social life in real life for me. Side eye conversations, comfortable silences. It’s a visual and kinetic stim for me, and helps keep me grounded andContinue reading “Online friends and running buddies”
National Coming Out Day
I posted the above on National Coming Out Day, and a friend commented this: “I really struggle with why people have to “come out!” I mean “straight” people don’t have to, so why should they? What’s wrong with people just being accepted for who and what they are?” After much deliberation, here is my response:Continue reading “National Coming Out Day”
Ausome Charlie 